いつもの事だけど it's not unusual

毎学期末の自分の生活の堕落ぶりが悲しいです。

でも今週で授業は終わり！！頑張れ、自分 笑

that my life around the end of a semster is always terrible.

BUT after this week, I'm done!!  I can hang on :D 

サムイノキライ it's freezing here

今日は寒い。寒い寒い死ぬほど寒い。

おまけに昨日の夜更かしで眠い。目が開かない。

化粧のりも悪い。服も適当。テンションも低い。

そして体調も優れない…

どれもみんな、絶対に数日以内に来るはずの月一の腹痛病のせいだ。

今日唯一の授業中も、そのクラスのレポートのミーティング中も、なんか上の空だったな。

ごめん、ペアの子。何話したのか、あなたがどんな顔だったのかも覚えてないわ。。

その後翻訳して送った、明日の授業用のチャイ語、果たしてちゃんと届いてるのかどうか。

バイオリンの練習の時だけは、ちゃんと意識があって良かった…。

うん、いつも通り、私はすごい音を奏でてたわ 汗

１日中なんとなく物悲しいのは、James Bluntの"You're Beautiful"を昨日聞いたから。

あーもぅ、他人の歌なんかで切ながってる場合じゃないのに。私は忙しいんだから！

でも、明日から１２月！！きっと明日は楽しい１日になるはず！

it's freezing today... it's fucking cold, i can't go to school!!

and i'm soooo tired from last night reading crap! such a waste of time!

my makeup isn't right, i hate my clothes, how i'm so depressed today... 

i feel so terrible

and i know they're all due to my once-a-month-stomachache arrival... probably in a few days.

I was totally up in the air during the only class i had today.

i'm so sorry, my project partner,  but i have no idea what we had talked about

nor do i even remember your face...

i wonder if that e-mail got to her, that Cinese homework i did after that class.

at least, i remember clearly about our orchestra practice today.

i was making weird noises as usual... :<

because I listened to that song, "You're Beautiful", by James Blunt yesterday

and that's what's  making me feel so sad througout the day. gosh!

i'm a busy girl, and don't have time being broken-hearted by other people's songs, ok?

but tomorrow is December!!! i hope tomorrow will be a good day for me!!!   

金木犀 Fragrant Olive

昨日から金木犀のにおいがします！！！このにおい大好き☆家の窓からにおうって事は、どこか近所で咲いてる～、と思って昨日夕食前に近所徘徊しました 笑　暗いからあんまり分からなかったけど、どうも斜め前の家にも１本あるみたい。律（サークル）から帰るときも、学館から出たら金木犀のいい香りが！いたるところで秋のにおいがします☆

金木犀をにおうと、通っていた大分・別府の幼稚園の園庭の隅にあった金木犀の木が思い出されます♪秋のバザーの時に、小さな袋を縫って、その中に金木犀の花を入れた「におい袋」を１０円くらいで売ったりしたなぁ。小学校に上がっても、通学路に金木犀の木があって、「あー秋が来たっ！！」と思ったりしてました。でもここは東京だからか、いつもよりちょっと早い気が。。きっと別府の金木犀はまだ咲いてないでしょう。

I can smell Fragrant Olives from yesterday!! They smell soooo good :D I knew they're somewhere near my house because I can smell them at home... so yesterday night, before dinner, I explored around my neighborhood searching for the tree ;P The sun had already set and it was hard to see, but I did find those tiny golden flowers shining dimly in the dark, from the yard of the house across from ours!　Today, after our string orchestra practice, I stepped out of the building and, again, smelled it… I don’t know whether they grow in the States or not, but if you’re in Japan, the scent of Fragrant Olives always tells us, “Fall has come!”

The smell always reminds me of my kindergarten in Beppu, Oita. There was a big Fragrant Olive tree in the corner of the playground. We held a little festival every fall, and soled many craps that kindergarten kids made, like beads rings, clay mugs, and sewed bags and so on. One of them was called a “scent bag”; it was a little cloth bag with Fragrant Olive flowers in it. I believe it was 10 cents or so… but it did smell good :D When I started going to elementary school, I always noticed its smell on my way to school and thought, “now, It’s fall!!” But probably because I’m in Tokyo now… I feel like it’s too soon for them to bloom. I think the Fragrant Olives in Beppu is still getting ready!

今日は早速カメラを持って散策！！確かに近所にいっぱいありました☆金木犀って日本中どこにでもあるんだね。。そしていつもその近所に住める私は幸せだ♪♪

So today, I went out and found many more around my house!! Is it everywhere in Japan or am I just so lucky I get  to live near them everytime I move???